Monday, November 14, 2011

Been a While

I haven't been on here for quite some time...but some of my incredible friends inspired me:)

I don't have a TON to say, my life is just chaotic. But i have learned some things about myself. I don't like rules, fences, obligations, deadlines, orders, or STRESS. hahaha, basically, you are thinking "So....you can't handle life?" NO. What i am saying is, I see the world differently. I see freedom, and options! I don't see limitations or deadlines! I see carefree. I see beauty. Life shouldn't be defined by what we CAN'T do. It should be defined by what we CAN. Some people see me as, idk, irresponsible and opinionated....and rude. I guess they are right, from an outside perspective. The inside perspective is different. I'm positive, full of light and radiance. I see the BEAUTY in the world, in people. I want to create beauty. I cherish freedom and choices and individuality. Its quite incredible what God has created. I long to create adventures. I'm done with the same-old. I'm done with the regular. I am passionate and inspired and CRAZY definitely. I understand this outlook on life can be frustrating to others. But i love the spontaneity of it. Spontaneity is THE BEST. To me....THAT is living; its a thrill.
A good animal to relate me to would have to be a wild stallion/mustang---whatever! When fenced in, I go NUTS. :) but watching me run free, is beautiful! ------OKAY, this is getting mushy. lets stop. now.

As you can probably tell, im craving an adventure! I feel one brewing in the air. Heavenly Father knows me so well.....and i know he is sending me one. SOON.

Before i go I want to express my deepest, strongest/most powerful emotions of desire I have for something....and that is, to be a wife and mother. I don't feel like i can adequately express my feelings about this. My mind changes ALOT about what i want to do in life, but one always remains the same, and that is my future family! I believe in fairy-tale love, the deepest fiery passion and unimaginable happiness....if we make it that way. (and don't let "the world" effect us) I believe in the CRAZY, SILLY, CARE-FREE, and LOVING mother. I want to be that. The most important thing i can do in my whole entire life and existence, is raise Heaven's warriors. To raise gentleman worthy of the sacred power of the priesthood, and for Heavenly Father's beloved and precious daughters. Ones that will cherish family and the sacred bonds of marriage, and ones that will invite Christ into their countenances. To raise Princesses to be kind-hearted, creative, SASSY (YES, like me) virtuous, to always know their worth, to be full of faith, and strong! Strong enough to stand next to a man and hold him up and keep his focus forward; and gentle enough to hold a newborn baby in their arms and see Heaven in their eyes. I want that. I want THAT.  And hell can't stand in my way. --------AND THAT...is how passionate i am about that:)  Who needs a job when you can have that! seriously!

Okay. I need to be done. haha.

Goodnight:)

-Me